Last week I had a panic attack while sitting in my car before yoga. I’d like to say this was the first time that’s happened, but I would be lying. In fact, it’s happened more times than I care to admit.
I’ve been “losing my shit” for as long as I can remember. These panic attacks started happening in high school, and have stayed with me ever since. No amount of modern anxiety medicine or yoga sessions has sent them packing, unfortunately. And that’s okay. I used to get so angry at them, pouting and sulking at the fact that I couldn’t seem to control my emotions enough to “pull it together” or “get a grip.” Now, I welcome them with open arms, because it’s a clear f*cking sign that something’s not aligning correctly with my mind and my body, and that it needs to be sorted out. Now, I see my panic attacks as an energy force that helps rewire my body back to its balanced state.
I realize this is a strange way to look at something as serious as having a panic attack. And I’m not trying to downplay these attacks, at all. Because boy, they can be brutal. But now rather than resisting or reacting to them when they arise, I choose to accept them for what they are. And I do this because I truly believe that sometimes you need to “lose your shit” or have a huge meltdown, letting yourself feel all of the things you’re feeling, in order to break through that glass ceiling that’s holding you back and level-up your life.
Because…sometimes, you need to fall apart in order to fall together.
Oh boy. This one’s a biggie. Moving in with your significant other is the first major hurdle of any long-term relationship. And it’s a HUGE test to see whether or not they’re the real deal. Now, I’m definitely not old-fashioned when it comes to stuff like this (or um, at all). I’m more of a ‘test it before you buy it’ sort of gal, ya know? To me, it’s so important to live with your significant other before you choose to commit even further to the relationship. I would personally never marry someone I hadn’t lived with for AT LEAST 6 months. Not only does it give you an idea of what they’re like on a SUPER personal level, but you also get to know their real character…personality traits…quirks…habits….etc. You know the saying, ‘the true test of someone’s character is what they do when no one is watching’? Well, it’s true. It’d be pretty damn hard to hide your true self 24/7…unless you’re a total sociopath. The good, bad, and extra ugly is bound to be released at some point. And it’s crucial to know who your partner is, both inside and out, if you’re going to choose to spend the rest of your life with them.
If you’re anything like me, then you can’t half-ass or somewhat commit to anything. You’re either ALL in or ALL out - there’s no in between. This sort of mindset has worked wonders for me in the past, as I’m always deemed the ‘most dedicated’ to anything and everything I choose to be a part of. Seriously, I’ve got trophies to prove it. Yet, this mindset has also come back to bite me in the ass at times…because I spread myself waaaaay too thin trying to do it all, end up having weekly panic attacks about it, and inevitably have to bail on someone or something to keep my sanity intact. What can I say? I’m a people pleaser through and through. It’s one of my best and worst traits, and I know I’m not the only one.
Being both a yoga teacher and a yoga student is so rewarding. There is really nothing better than helping students find the balance within their bodies and their lives to reach new heights. It's also amazing applying those tools in my own practice to see those shifts happen in my life as well.
Over the past year and a half of teaching, I've gotten quite selective of the products I use and recommend to my fellow teachers, students, and peers. I also get asked quite a bit about the products I choose, so I thought I'd do a little 'yoga roundup' of my favorite items! You can click on the pictures for more info!
I’ve quit every single job I’ve ever had, which is definitely is better than being fired…but it’s probably a good thing I decided to become a self-employed entrepreneur. Ha! The truth is, I’ve never been comfortable sitting at a desk, punching a clock, and helping someone else achieve their goals while I put mine on the back-burner. However, I certainly attempted to do so for a while prior to making the leap to self-employment. I held three serious jobs after college before deciding to go off on my own, and I like to think I quit each with dignity and grace.
Quitting a job is one of the scariest things you’ll ever do, especially if it’s a great gig and you like your boss. However, if bigger and better things are calling your name…it’s so important to lean in to those gut feelings and say farewell to an old opportunity to make room for an even more exciting one. So, when you waltz in to have that big convo with your boss, be sure to remember the following!
As young professionals, we always want to look our best when attending job interviews, internships, and at work in general. Yet…many of those jobs are NOT supplying us with the financials we need to have that fabulous work wardrobe. $100 for a pair of black dress pants?! Um, no thank you.
Luckily, I’ve managed to scout out some hidden gems when it comes to professional attire. You know the saying “fake it till you make it”? Well, the same applies to purchasing nice, adult(ish) clothing. We may not be able to afford those $100 slacks quite yet, but we sure can trick you into thinking we’re the chicest of the chic with our $20 Target finds and that designer top we snagged on sale at Nordstrom Rack.
The following 8 stores are my favorite places to shop for my work attire! Each of them are either incredibly affordable OR offer amazing deals on a pretty consistent basis. Check them out :) You can click on the name of each store to start shopping online now, too!
To celebrate my 24th birthday, I thought I'd share some of the most important lessons I've learned throughout my 24 years on this beautiful Earth. Here's to another year of kicking ass around the sun, and even more lessons to be learned along the way!
In case you missed it, I went to Paris, France last week with two of my dearest friends…and it was THE MOST incredible trip of my life. Truly. I’ve been to several European cities, but none compare to the city of Paris. It was the most beautiful, breathtaking, dreamy place I’ve ever been. I’m honestly still reeling from the whole experience. And I can’t wait to go back.
Whether you’re seeking fabulous shopping, cultural events, sexy performances, sight seeing, or the best cuisine you’ll ever devour…this place has exactly what you’re looking for. I’m not kidding - I would never joke about fabulous shopping ;)
Below I’ve outlined some of the BEST experiences I had during my wonderful Eurotrip as well as some travel tips: everything from restaurants, cafes, sights, shopping, shows, and the most efficient ways to get around. Next time you’re in Paris, I HIGHLY recommend giving a few of these a go!!!
I always felt like, to some extent, I was suffocating. Slowly but surely…and that there was a countdown to how much time I had left before I finally collapsed. I felt like that for 18 years.
Stuck in a small town surrounded by big, beautiful hills that always seemed to be getting closer…the only way out being a winding highway packed with toll booths - a tunnel built into a mountain as the final stretch before you could cross the state line.
My worst fear was that the tunnel would one day collapse and there would be no way out. I had that nightmare for years. Sometimes, even now, it comes back to me.
I always knew I needed to break away from what my family had done for years and find a new place to call home. I always knew there was something much bigger out there waiting for me. I always knew I had to leave in order to become the woman I wanted to be.
Because, the truth is…I felt small, insignificant, and limited. I felt restricted. I felt like the only way to get the most out of life was to go far beyond those state lines and soak up as much information about the world as possible.
You see, your vision becomes clouded when the people you love have settled somewhere for so long. You think that what you see is all there is to life. You don’t seek a way out. And you don’t want to, because why would you leave the only thing that’s familiar to you? It feels safe. It feels comfortable. It feels natural.
To live the life we’ve always wanted to live, we must be willing to do things we never thought we could do.
The scariest thing I ever did was move to a new city where I didn’t know anyone to start a new life.
And it’s also the best decision I ever made.
photo by Jackie Hallinan
Hi beauties! I'm Tori: a 24-year-old writer, reader, and coffee drinker here to inspire you to become the most authentic and empowered version of yourself. Together we'll transform.
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