Last week I had a panic attack while sitting in my car before yoga. I’d like to say this was the first time that’s happened, but I would be lying. In fact, it’s happened more times than I care to admit.
I’ve been “losing my shit” for as long as I can remember. These panic attacks started happening in high school, and have stayed with me ever since. No amount of modern anxiety medicine or yoga sessions has sent them packing, unfortunately. And that’s okay. I used to get so angry at them, pouting and sulking at the fact that I couldn’t seem to control my emotions enough to “pull it together” or “get a grip.” Now, I welcome them with open arms, because it’s a clear f*cking sign that something’s not aligning correctly with my mind and my body, and that it needs to be sorted out. Now, I see my panic attacks as an energy force that helps rewire my body back to its balanced state.
I realize this is a strange way to look at something as serious as having a panic attack. And I’m not trying to downplay these attacks, at all. Because boy, they can be brutal. But now rather than resisting or reacting to them when they arise, I choose to accept them for what they are. And I do this because I truly believe that sometimes you need to “lose your shit” or have a huge meltdown, letting yourself feel all of the things you’re feeling, in order to break through that glass ceiling that’s holding you back and level-up your life.
Because…sometimes, you need to fall apart in order to fall together.
Oh boy. This one’s a biggie. Moving in with your significant other is the first major hurdle of any long-term relationship. And it’s a HUGE test to see whether or not they’re the real deal. Now, I’m definitely not old-fashioned when it comes to stuff like this (or um, at all). I’m more of a ‘test it before you buy it’ sort of gal, ya know? To me, it’s so important to live with your significant other before you choose to commit even further to the relationship. I would personally never marry someone I hadn’t lived with for AT LEAST 6 months. Not only does it give you an idea of what they’re like on a SUPER personal level, but you also get to know their real character…personality traits…quirks…habits….etc. You know the saying, ‘the true test of someone’s character is what they do when no one is watching’? Well, it’s true. It’d be pretty damn hard to hide your true self 24/7…unless you’re a total sociopath. The good, bad, and extra ugly is bound to be released at some point. And it’s crucial to know who your partner is, both inside and out, if you’re going to choose to spend the rest of your life with them.
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